Missed.
I’m a week and a half into the semester already. And found myself in a spot where, everything that I’m doing makes no sense again. It has, I suppose become routine. No, I have become complacent. Ya, that’s right. Busy-ness breeds complacency. Struggles are better than busy-ness.
Anyway, I woke up this morning, waiting on God. I just don’t know whether what I do now, is really “His Kingdom, His righteousness”. When I started semester last week, I knew, but now I don’t. So I tried to be still before Him, and awaited his answer. I knew I was beginning to do things for the sake of doing things already. And I had to get back to the original intention. If faith without deeds is dead. I suppose the reverse is irrelevant. There has to be a RIGHT starting point when doing something. And I’ve lost it.
Then just now as I was on Facebook, as I was going on the rounds of seeing the going-ons of other people’s life. One photo caught my eye. Then another. Then another one. Then photos in my memory began to pop up. And I thought to myself, “Gosh, I miss them… ooo.. I miss you… and you … and you… and you…”
And I felt God saying that I’ve forgotten the important things in life simply because I don’t see them. For whatever the reason maybe (some may have been good ones!), I have removed the important parts from what I do. Dad becomes another word, so does mom, so does family, so does friends, church and even God. Learning becomes another thing altogether, curiosity, work, life, struggles and many many more, all lose their meaning.
I have missed the point of many things. Then at that moment, I saw my Bible. And I realised that God’s Word has become a thing to me. It’s no longer God’s Word. Much like all of us who wants to finish the work, we get side tracked into a meaningless dimension where we become so detached from reality, that we lose sight of the goal.
Sad thing is that many of us, (I admitted am one of the chronic cases) think that dimension we have stepped into is real. The fact of it is, it’s half real. Because we removed the other half. The squishy, sticky, messy part that complicates things. But makes it all real. The purpose of the work: the person(s) we do it for (it can be family, friend, stranger, God or even, yourself! because God’s wants you to enjoy too!).
The first step to recovery, is to admit there’s something wrong. So, I missed you, and you, and you, and you… oo oo oo.. and her …. and her.. and him.. and her.. and him… AGNES!! hahaha…
Oh and there’s one more! He’s the One we always believe He’s always with us, but a lot of times, we take Him for granted… so I miss You too!! 