I’ve been wondering how to write about the year 2008… it’s not been an easy year… nor has it been a bad year… Was it a year of breaking? or building? Reproach? of encouragement? Punishment? or blessing? God’s wrath? Show of God’s sovereignty? or training?
God really took away my hopes of a relationship, hopes of a stable life and hopes of staying the best. Yet strangely as I reflect, I realised that He took away what I wanted, and gave me something better…
I have found faithful friends, dependable and inspiring leaders, a new appreciation for my family, younger ones that I love, met Godly and amazing men and women… God took away my hopes of one relationship… and gave me other relationships… Although that was not what I wanted (I’ve been told to close down that area of my life for at least another 3 years)… but what God gave in return was what I needed…
Similarly, my hopes of a stable life was crushed… God took away what would be a life in a 9 to 5 job and put me in an adventure… an adventure that has its foundation in Jesus… I lost my hope of a stable life… and gained a promise of a stable and abundant life…
He took away my hopes of staying the best, but He gave me opportunities to improve and a a promise that He will be there… I may not be the best or stay the best…but for all that I am and the circumstances that surround me… I can always be the best if I stay faithful… I have gained a promise of success
“2008 was a year when God turned hopes of what was possible into promises of the impossible and making true all that were meant to be.”
All that God has done means a lot to me, but it is not the things that He has done that has won my heart… it was only yesterday that God helped me realised what He was trying to say to me:
“Believe in me, Cheng Yee”
This was His heart cry to me, all He wanted was for me not to only trust that everything will work out… but to believe that He was able to do all that and exceedingly more… to believe in His love for me.. to believe that He wants to prosper me… that He is with me and will never leave me… to believe that He will save me… yes… Christians need to be saved just as non-Christians do…
I cannot understand the immensity of the grace and love shown to me, but I believe. I may be confused and lost. But I believe.
Thank you everyone for a wonderful 2008, thank you Lord for an amazing year! Now the question is… what is 2009?